why? why???!!!

Why???why??!!!

today when it was going home time, the sky turned super dark super windy. then, that was when i decided that i better get home fast before the 'storm' and got myself stuck in stupid aj. so i went home, i didnt feel like going to chem remedial, too lazy,n tat stupid kei got farah as company, so i didnt relly need to go. then kei told me the usual 'go lar' 'go lar, can see tomato ler' but i said no,two times i went n nothing happened n nothing is going to ever happen. juz like to see tomato's brown hair lar... the hair is the best part lar...but then.... of all friday,pian pian today is the friday that i would have the chance to sit right behind tomato n the worst thing is pian pian today i decided to be lazy..... aaargh!!!! damn!!!!!why???why!!!???? haiz i ren ming lar, not tat despo anyway.... n idiotic kei sms me: said tat my darling told the whole class i did the whole ionic thingy n then tomato turn back to see and...tats'it no further detail!!! nothing no continuation!!!!.....so wot happen, wot?! wot?!tell me?! but she nv answered, left me ya knoe hanging in the air there... doing the ionic tingy makes me feel like i am a freak like those in muggertot gang, i did it coz darling told me to, haiz then she announced it when tomato was there, k lar most prob he wouldnt know who the hell was this ionic freak and he wont care lar ah... i think i am just being freaky, paranoid, think too much of myself...
the worst thing today is an unreproductive day for me, wasted one more day... again....shit!!!! hope felix psle oral el will be very very fine.....